Year End..

I can't believe this year is coming to an end. I totally spaced it was even New Years eve today. I guess I don't get into the whole "yayyy, this year is coming to an end" business. Ba humbug huh?
Given the days that God has granted us, years-months-hours-are so precious to come by. I think people can look back at not only their years- but their lives, their weeks, even their smallest moments in amazement and at how swiftly they all go by. I remember when my daughter Tiana was just a small little thing, and she is blossoming so. Turning to God and knowing Him in her own heart, she is truly growing swiftly! Even little Adrianna will be visiting soon, and I know that I will be amazed at how much she will have grown in the small amount of time that she has been away. Looking at the girls pictures, and remembering that life will so often change, reminded me of what Moses prayed in Psalm 90:12

12 "So teach us to number our days,That we may gain a heart of wisdom."

What a valuable thing to pray!
I read that we will spend most of our lives sleeping, and working with about equal time in between to do what we please. Doesn't seem right does it? Now, I don't remember the exact numbers, but when I think about how fast my day goes by, and how much time I waste when I'm NOT spending time with God, it saddens me.
I also know that when I take the time to be still and stop long enough to hear myself breathe, I am thankful that I have a God that thought me worthy enough to allow that breath to give me life. Yes, He is in control of all Heaven and Earth...All the creeping things of the land and of the sea.. The stars, the moon, the sky. Yet and still every day, He loves me enough to grant me life. Amazing isn't it? One more moment, one more hour,one more day. A chance to grow closer. A chance to listen. A chance to Love.
Thank you God, for you always know exactly what to do, exactly what to say, and exactly where to show up!
Here is to a fuller, even more delightful walk with God. Whether it be one day, or you are looking forward to an entire year, let us remember to number our days as Moses said. Being mindful that those minutes are choices we make to grow closer and closer to a God we so dearly love!
Happy New Year everyone :)

God Hath Promised

I love this small simple poem. It is short to the point and ohhh so true! Enjoy!

What God Hath Promised
Annie Johnson Flint

God hath not promised

Skies always blue,

Flower-strewn pathways

All our lives through;

God hath not promised

Sun without rain,

Joy without sorrow,

Peace without pain.

But God hath promised

Strength for the day,

Rest for the labour,

Light for the way,

Grace for the trials,

Help from above,

Unfailing sympathy,

Undying love.

Uplifting Scripture of The Week

Matthew 11:28-30

28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.

This is my husbands favorite verse, and rightly so. These verses remind us that Jesus gives rest to the weary heart, and food to the hungry soul. When we become like Christ and allow Him to lead us, our burdens become light, and easy to bear. Knowing you have a leader and a partner in Christ is always knowing you will go the right way, you just have to let HIM steer!

To Inspire

I have been told in the past that I have somewhat inspired a few people. An amazing compliment? YOU BET YA! It is good to hear, but it is God that deserves all the Glory. For it is the God inside me that I obey, seek, and look towards for guidance and ultimately to help me grow.

I thought about what it means to inspire, and I began to see that inspiration to some, is not always inspiration to others.. so I did some research. The American Heritage Dictionary defines inspiration as:

in·spi·ra·tion
(ĭn'spə-rā'shən)
*Stimulation of the mind or emotions to a high level of feeling or activity.
*The condition of being so stimulated.
*An agency, such as a person or work of art, that moves the intellect or emotions or prompts action or invention.
*Something, such as a sudden creative act or idea, that is inspired.
*The quality of inspiring or exalting: a painting full of inspiration.
*Divine guidance or influence exerted directly on the mind and soul of humankind.
*The act of drawing in, especially the inhalation of air into the lungs.

I thought this was very interesting indeed! Look at these definitions..

To inspire is something we don't create ourselves, but it happens naturally, or spiritually rather. In these definitions, there is really no explanation on how these events occur. We have to have faith that God is behind all true inspiration, and that the gift of inspiration is a precious one. When we stay faithful and obedient to God, we bear fruit, and this fruit when created in Christ, can feed others. I have benefited from the fruit of those who truly know God, and it has made me grow! It truly is a blessing to be able to inspire others, but let us always be thankful for the message, for the Love that was poured out to us, and the inspiration that becomes life.

I Believe..

I loved this idea from Priscilla, and enjoyed reading her "beliefs" here are a few of mine..

I Believe.. Jesus Christ died for our sins and made a way for us in Heaven.

I Believe... God can do all things

I Believe.. that though you think you know people, sometimes you've only scratched the surface.

I Believe...that it only takes a moment to make a mistake, but it can take a life-time to repair it.

I Believe..that God does all things for a reason.

I Believe..that the people that love you most sometimes say it the least.

I Believe..that caring for others is a necessity.

I Believe.. that some of the sweetest things in life can be missed in the blink of an eye.

I Believe..that stopping to hear God whisper, is sweeter that hearing the world scream.

I Believe..that every day is a gift.

I Believe...that every time you think you lose a friend, with God involved, He just preps its for take off!

I Believe.. that no matter the circumstance, you are never alone.

I Believe..that when you truly believe, things happen.

You may not notice..

But I changed the name of my blog. I tried to find something more "me" and something that reflects what I have been experiencing lately.
Seriously, God is so good to me. He has really set me free lately, and though He is the only one that truly knows my heart, my words can never express how grateful I am to Him. He has really formed me from the nothing-ness that I was and made me somebody whom He loves. I say that with confidence not because of my works, but because of the promise that He made to me, and because of how much He has given me in my life. I never deserved any of it, and when I think of how much He carried me through this life, I become overwhelmed with joy and thankfulness. He never gives up on us, and His patience is unmatched.
I think often about Psalm 118:8 and how it states:

8 It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.

This has been a wonderful passage for me to remember. I think back to when my friend Becky and I were at odds with each other. I had given up on our friendship, and came to terms with the worst-that we would never become friends again. Somehow, a while before Christ found me, her and I got together and started talking. We discovered that we missed each others friendships dearly, and were sorry for time we had lost together. It was no short amout of time, and being as close as we were, not speaking in over a year was something major! I was afraid our friendship would never be the same, but as I got closer to God, He blessed that friendship and now she is like a sister to me. I love her no matter what, and that friendship could only develop because of our love of God. It has indeed been blessed. Again, perfect no. But a blessing, yes.
See..Sometimes I think I know how things will turn out in life, but it is God who knows all, and who crates all. I had even lost friends for silly reasons, only to find out they have realtionships with Christ as well, and He brought us around full circle. Isn't He great? It is the Lord that blesses all those relationships, and continues to help them grow. He has made it clear! and once again, I am thankful.
Reflecting back, I have felt passionately about some things in my life, a couple that I can recall right off the top of my head, but it is only God who has out-shone all those things in my life- and He should, shouldn't He?.. yes, He remains in the center. Am I perfect? absolutely not, but that is the gracious part of Gods wonderful gift.

He gives us another day to learn, another day to love, and another day to put our trust solely in Him. In essence, to grow. Listen, I have been let down before..we are human, we ALL have, but isn't it a blessing that God will never disappoint us? Yes, sometimes we don't understand, but we KNOW that He will never, ever let us down.

I love it, and my heart cries out to Him in thankfulness in all He has done. There is much work to do, but I am glad that I can lean on an awesome healer like Jesus Christ. He understands me inside and out, and yet, He still loves me. There is true relief in that, and even if I said it a million times, then a million times again, those thank-yous would never be enough. They couldn't even come close.
For He knows what He has done for me, knows what He has changed inside me, and though the world may fail us, Christ stays with us- we are all blessed indeed!

New Blog-ventures..

Ok so one of the newest things I do is making up new words...as demonstrated in "blog-ventures" there.. The words never stick, but it has earned me somewhat of score on "cool points" as once dubbed by me and my sister way back in what..? 93? yeah that's probably about right. Anyway, some people actually enjoy my off-the-wall, and sometimes random sense of humor. As you all know, I purchased a VW bug with my husband and it is looking to be quite the adventure.
The first 2 minutes we got the car was hilarious and it inspired a new blog idea. I've entitled it"when good cars go bad". I don't know,something about the true sadness of a car that is almost sad beyond measur...and, it's what came to me when I thought of the hilarity of some of the things we do for cars we love~ anyway, its should be pretty funny and you can check it out anytime on blogger- yes, the link to Good_Cars_Gone_Bad is now available- Click and visit today!

This Little Light of Mine...

"I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine!"

I thought about this melody when I came into work this morning. Humming along as I came in..I thought about how many times I could let my light shine, and how the adversary tries to dim that light, the Light the Lord so graciously shone upon us. And has shared within us.This morning on my way in, I got some bad news..kinda. Just one more to add to the list! (btw I think "bad news is really only as bad as you take it to be) I was ok with it, and you know what? I'm not letting anything dim or darken the Light that is within me- nope, just not gonna let it! God has blessed me this day, and there is nothing that can change that. Here's confirmation:
when I finally got my computer up and running, I saw this picture my sis took over the weekend- you may notice it from my updated blog :

I tweaked it a little and added pretty borders, etc to it, but this is what I see every time I boot up my computer now. I thought about all the things that make our light brighter, and just being happy for the things that we have, the people that are safely within arms reach, and the beauty that God unveils to us each day. Scripture says: "Be Still and know that I am God. "(psalm 26:10) He rarely screams or shouts, we have to search for him- always. I find myself looking over these pictures constantly because they add electricity to the Light that God instills inside of me. I bug my sister often for every single picture she takes for this very reason- so I am reminded always of where my life comes from, and never forgetting that when I look at the lights within my life, I can't help but to smile. Here are some for you to enjoy with me!

This one is of our new family, we are missing little Adri, but she is never far from our spirits or our hearts.

How can you not smile when you look at this?

And there He is...always with us, always watching us,- His children, forever encouraging us to grow!

Big ups to my sister Tiffanie- she does a great job with photography, and I love seeing her pictures over and over and over again! Till next time..Let your light shine continuously- the Lord within us is never failing, and He endures forever! have a blessed day!

A new day..

So many things to write about, so little paper...
I guess I will start with the weekend. It was an eventful one, concerning my spirit, and it has changed a lot within me. Like I had stated in a previous blog my friends sister in law passed away, and I found my self at her service there early on Saturday. It was a beautiful, amazing, and love filled home going service. It caused me to think about my life, and what I would leave behind, what kind of a person I would like to be.. and I decided that I would let God figure that out. He can do so many things in my life, so I re-committed myself to Him. This was ironic to me because it happened to be what we talked about during Sundays sermon, so it was a reassurance to me and comfort to know that God was indeed trying to tell me something.
It seems though, that as soon as you do that, as soon as you listen, the adversary looks for a way to bring you down. I argued with my family a lot on Sunday which saddened me because I feel like there is a simple answer to all the chaos that surrounds us. I hate fighting, but we are human, and it is hard to show love to someone inside a moment when they are pushing every possible button you have....relentlessly.
Especially for me.
and the adversary knows it.
I have a temper-a short fuse- and irritated way about me, because deep down, I just want to love people, and when its not reciprocated, or when I don't get the answer I expect-I get hurt- then what do I do? I get irritated. It's so easy, and so quick, yet so dis-satisfying. I often feel like I'm fighting an uphill battle in my very own flesh, and there I am, helpless in the middle of it- just screaming for it to stop! Stop..Stop..STOP! Then God shows up.. soothing and subtle to my Spirit.
God has so much more planned for us, and I realized on Saturday that we haven't much time to do it in. Who cares what food you will eat today? Where the laundry goes, or some other meaningless matter? I don't! No, my focus is on God, and all the Glory that He has planned for me. Someday, all these things will pass away, and I too, will go with it- but my desire, my prayer, my never ending hope is that while in the presence of the Lord, He is pleased with me. God instilled in me a warm, loving, and joyous spirit, full of life, and screaming out for excitement and fun. Tell me how THAT can't bring God Glory- No matter what, He is my Father, and I am His child, and though not perfect, I pray that in His eyes- one day, I will be.

Guess What?

Hello All!!!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and like my previous blog says, we have sooo much to be thankful for! My list includes great friends and wonderful family! My friend Rebecca is amazing at crafts, though I hate using that term because there is so much more to what she does. She is creative, coordinated, and pretty much just an artist! I have seen this girl cook, successfully can stuff(including peaches and tomatoes,etc), and do all sorts of fun stuff! NOW...she is opening her very own etsy shop!!!! Check it out HERE. She has everything from frames to aprons. She just opened, but if i know my girl correctly, there will be lots more to come- is it just me, or is this just ridiculously exciting?
Also, If you want to see more of my friend Rebecca, check out her blog SparklinBecks! She always fills her blog with all kinds of fun stuff- makes for a great read. I will let you guys go, we all have some shopping to do!

Life is...

Short. And amazing. And hard. And tragic. And beautiful. And perfectly the way God intended it to be. Thanksgiving this year has a whole new meaning for me, as recent events have made me thankful for more than I ever thought possible. I was driving into work today, and thought about all that had happened…My friends, that I look to as family, lost someone dear to them, and they were just beginning on that road of new pain. It was yesterday when we found out, and seeing the hurt on their faces began to make me weep. I recalled the way I felt when the Treslers, some other dear friends of mine, lost someone special too. I remembered hearing of their loss, and just picturing the hurt within them also made me weep. I hate the pain that comes along with these circumstances, because it is such an intimate pain. I began to think about how God revealed so many things to me, and how I couldn’t believe I was so impacted by the situations of my friends/family. When I was in the world, I cared but would never show an outward sign of such emotion. In both circumstances, I wished there was more I could do, hoped there was something I could say, or just a prayer that would fix it all. But I couldn’t. I had never faced a loved one passing, and I didn’t know what to do. I. just. didn’t. know. All I could do was pray for healing and strength for the ones I love, because God is all knowing, and I had faith that He heard their cries. Lost in the sense of losing someone you love, and knowing that you will never see them again is by all means devastating, but I have seen these families pick themselves up, worship God, and give Him thanks through the pain. They are all Gods children, and though we are blessed to see another day, we must remember that life is but a vapor- here and quickly gone again. Called home, and gone on to Glory when it’s your time.
I thought these things in an awe- inspiring moment, wondering how many times people of faith had taken another road, blaming God for returning their loved ones so quickly to His home. And, wondering how I would react in such a situation when my turn comes, as I know someday it might. Losing someone you love, will you feel forgotten, lonely, and desolate? I prayed that I would never feel that way, when suddenly, as God would have it, I came to a stop sign. I peered out. Hum.. A new crop of corn had been planted, and was beginning to grow…there were birds flying about, all different kinds, flying aggressively, then swooping down to gather or graze on some of the crops that were just starting to grow. Isn’t that bad for the corn I thought? So many seeds being taken away, how will they ever grow? Where is the scarecrow to prevent the birds from coming again? Hadn’t the farmers taken action to protect their crops?
And then I heard “See? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?” (mat. 6:26)
“Yes God” I said. “Feeds them”, I thought…What a perfect picture of God in this situation. The birds knew where to get the food, yet the farmers do not worry, because in due season, the harvest will be plentiful. There are some that will wither away I’m sure, but their purpose was not in vain. Through taking this food, many birds have been fed, tending to the most primal of needs, sustenance, perhaps even feeding babies in their warm winter nests, so that they may live another day. They know what must occur to maintain life. Yes, we are more precious then those birds, all Gods creation, and meant for a purpose. We may not be there when the harvest is reaped, but we will have served a purpose none-the-less, and God is good in everything He does.
My heart goes out to those mourning today, sending such an important reminder that God will carry us, feed us, teach us-spiritually, wherever we go. He promises to be there all the days of our life, until such time as we are called home. Then, and only then , will we know the goodness that is forever revealed to us- face to face, in the God that serve.

I'm Finding Time..

I'm finding time today to share something that has really uplifted my week. I have been busy, and should probably be doing a lot of other things right now, but I wanted to capture the goodness that I have felt throughout the week.
God has opened up a chance for me to talk consistantly with someone that I think previously (though I wanted to) had not always sought to draw close to. Again not intentionally, but I was too worried about what she would think, if she was too busy, or that she would just have something better to do than talk to me..(silly huh?) I wished that I was closer to this person but never put forth an agressive action to do so.
Well, somehow things changed..and I'm soooo happy they did. The time was right, and everything just seemed so comfortable and easy and fun at the same time. I see this person week after week, and just thought that we were close, but not that close,and I wondered of we ever would be. After all, when I talked to her, I always enjoyed it, so what was keeping us from being great friends?
Then I realized it...I was. I was so afraid of feeling silly or putting myself out there, that I held back from a fantastic friendship! She has poured into my life this week, and it has been a blessing just laughing, sharing, and being able to talk to her. I had to thank God for my friend because she found time to pick up the phone one day and call me. Not something she normally does, but she trusted God, put herself out there, and made way for our friendship to open up! I am so happy God placed her in my life, because just when you feel like you are all alone, unique,and different in your own way, God places someone there beside you that says: "I've been there, I understand, and hey- you aren't that crazy after all!"

Update on my monday

I'm in a great mood today folks! *sigh* I have to tell y'all that I could not begin to thank God enough for the things He has given me, and the people He has placed in my life. Not to mention the BLESSED couple days He has graciously bestowed upon me..
I returned to work today expecting the very least. I mean, what difference does it make if I was gone? Lil 'ol me? well...It was lovely! I got so many hugs and " we missed you" s That I think I started to feel overwhelmed. The most precious moment of my day though was knowing that one of my friends outside of work (that I fellowship with) paid me a very encouraging compliment without me even knowing it! I have heard these comments here and there and always tried to "write them off" but I have been listening to the heart behind these comments, and I have to tell you, it has become a very beautiful gift to me.
I pray always that God will use me, that He will never let go of me, that He will simply hear me, and in hearing these words, I find goodness in all that surrounds me. He heard me..I thought to myself today..He heard me. Isn't that cause for rejoice?!!
Friends, I tell you- there is NO other love like the love of our God, the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He is always on time, and knows just what to show you when you need it most. though you never know what is wrong, like the Good doctor He is-He hears your ailments, knows your hurts, and makes way for you to be whole again! God is so good to me, even when I'm no good to myself!

The week ahead

It's Sunday? Wow. As I looked at my last post, I was happy that I was beginning to close the gap between postings..nice.
Today I am reminded of the week ahead, and I found myself thinking about it constantly over the past couple days. It's weird because after being off for a month, I'm sure a lot of people would dread going back to work, but I, however, enjoy working. The social aspect of it is uniquely satisfying, and there are a lot of people there I love to talk to. Other believers in Christ, and other people that I generally "love". My sister has made it known to me that many people have sent their prayers and well wishes my way, and I find it a blessing to hear. They must know enough about me and my relationship with God to know that prayer is what I needed and would have appreciated most. It's nice to hear that people miss me or think of me for that matter, but it warms my heart to know that my friends at work would go to God on my behalf. I can't find words to describe the feeling, but I love it!
You see, this week has been tough for me. I've been restless in many aspects of life, and I felt like all I heard was a laundry list of things I do wrong. Now don't get me wrong, I didn't post this for a pity party, but I am hoping you can relate. I thought to myself...will this ever end? Am I just one of those people that will never do anything right? Or maybe I'm just one of those people you simply forget about, let fade into the back ground. I convinced myself over the years somehow that no one would really ever be satisfied with me, so I found myself saying"forget it. why try if you can never succeed?"
But this is what I have to remind myself: God is all powerful, and the adversary is quite cunning. Though the thought may have crossed my mind, the adversary would love to reap a harvest of my continued dissatisfaction. But God is the one who saved me, who grabbed my very life from the grips of this world, and who loved me long before I ever loved myself. Indeed, life is irritating, and frustrating, and you may feel invisible. The One we love is not seen, can be frustrated, and gets irritated from time to time I'm sure. We treat Him as though He doesn't matter, as though He never existed, and love Him like He is no more.
This week, my goal is to turn my eyes towards God, and seek to be seen by Him, and no one else. This way, regardless of my circumstance I know that I will be seen by the One who loves me most, and after all, isn't He the only one that matters?

A Thing of Beauty...

So I was looking at my sisters collection of pictures this morning, and noticed that one of her pictures of myself was selected to be in a group. I was flattered, and went to check it out. As I scrolled through the pages and pages of pictures, I admired all the beautiful people. How petite and gorgeous some women were, and how flawless they all seemed. Then I thought back to my picture...UGH! I thought. They could have picked another one. Surely they would have liked another one..I felt so "un-beautiful" in this picture. Why would they choose it?
Then I remembered what someone once told me, and I still remember it to this day. She said to me, "Tawn, you have kind eyes. The kind of eyes that welcome another from across the room, the kind of eyes that tell people everything will be ok. The kind of eyes that see right through to the soul...they're beautiful" she said. and I was amazed. And happy.
People compliment each other all the time, but for someone to take the time to see what was on the other side of my eyes, into my soul..is amazing. It's a rare occurrence for me, so I remember it dearly. Then I thought, this must be what God sees when He looks at us. We like to see the outside, what WE want people to see. Trying desperately to do all we can to mask the wreck that resides inside us. But God has known us from the beginning, and has touched us with little gifts that I think we never even notice. It's that "I can't quite put my finger on it" moment when you see another person and can appreciate them for who they are. truly, they are a thing of beauty. Scripture tells us in 1Peter 3:3-5:

3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. 5For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful.

Now this is the kind of beautiful I hope to be. God has done a work in me, and continues to work always, Lord willing, when I stand before Him- this beauty will be all He sees.

Random thoughts

I haven't blogged in a long time, and I can't figure out why. I have been home on medical leave and have lots of time, but I just haven't felt like myself lately. I have to say that I have a tendency to get this way a lot, and the feeling comes suddenly. My theory is that I am a wild and free spirit and I often feel "tied down". Not by my family or by my husband by any means, as they are the source of much joy and laughter in my life,but i long for the adventure that life sometimes brings. I mean I LOVE EXCITEMENT! I really do.
The everyday strains take a toll on me and I feel like I'm sure so many of us do. Wishing we had more freedom to do the things we want to do. Financially, socially, economically. Even my walk with Christ- I yearn for more! I don;t know what to do with myself sometimes, and still struggle to feel like I haven't really found myself..but here is the great part..I am not my own. I was bought with a price and Christ is the owner of my soul! That's good news,- wait. GREAT news, but I often struggle with what to do with myself in the "in between stages". The everyday living. Who would He want me to be?
Really, It's hard sometimes to be so devoted to something, because personally I feel like if I don't give 110%, then I'm not giving enough. I have always strived for the best, always wanted to be perfect, but Thank you Jesus that He is perfect, and it wasn't left up to me! I pray often and always that the Lord will not forget me, and hang on to the hope that I will see Him one day in heaven. We all have a chance, and a choice to make in life. To live or to die.

Matthew 16:25 says:
25For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.

So many around me have been in pain, or have gone through something(including myself). Even Tiana's great-grandmother passed recently, and explaining to my child what happened was hard. But pointing her towards God is easy, and showing her that a life lived in Christ, looking towards God is always worth living. May we remember that God is always a call away, and though we feel alone, we are never without Him. He is so good to me, and I praise Him for knowing where I am, who I am, and when I need Him most!

Prepping for Game night!

Yeah, That's right I said it. And, frankly, I can't believe I just did. It must be a part of growing up, or life coming full circle, but I'm super excited! There is something about laughter in a home that makes my heart skip. Good friends are always fun to be around, but when they are people that you love as well-it's even better. Family is great when it comes in friend form, and when family gets together- again- it's amazing. Stevie and I are having it at our home, and I am glad to have the time to welcome everyone in. I have been off for a little while now, and I think I would have felt really rushed had I been at work. I just like having people around- always have. Wish me luck! This week will be crazy, and I have to make sure everything is super clean! yayyy.

Great News!

We have a new addition to our family! So today is Stevie's birthday and last night we got a sweet dog named "smokey". Stevie had been wanting an Australian Shepard for a time now, and we just couldn't find one that fit us. Well, while searching for a while, we found one listed and went to go look at him. He is so sweet and kind and he does all kinds of fun stuff like play fetch and Frisbee. He and Payton (my collie) got acquainted last night, and this morning they are the best of friends! It all worked out. Stevie is super excited, and the dog is truly a blessing.
Stevie and I began to talk about how God does things like this. When we don't pray for something, its because we often think it's trivial or we think we would be "bothering" Christ. But how soon we forget that God knows the desires of out hearts before we ask for them. He always wants to see us happy, and just like a good parent, He will give us something fun, something unexpected, and something and that we will patiently wait for.
I realized that Stevie and I have taken on a "if I get something, great. if not, still-praise God." attitude when it comes to birthdays. God will do things in His own time, and as crazy and insignificant as asking for a dog may seem, I think this dog was God's way of saying- I see you, I love you, and by the way Happy Birthday! He is so good to us!

Yummy Treats!

I must be in a seriously "sweet" mood! I have been searching for things to cook and bake left and right lately, just looking for things that are yummy, not traditional, and fun (not to mention easy) to make. Stevie and I decided to make a really special dinner tonight since I had been talking about a meat market in our area. When we got there I was overwhelmed and mystified at the amount of meat! The prices were great, and I plan on making it our family stop for meat from now on! So after deciding on steaks, baked potatoes, and homemade mac and cheese, I also thought I would make desert as well. Why not right? I stumbled on this super easy and really delicious idea- S'more brownies! They have a recipe to make from scratch but I decided to take the quick and easy route. The recipe calls for homemade Graham cracker crust on the bottom of an 8X8 pan. I didn't like the idea of having to melt the marshmallows at one time, so I opted for the pre-made individual ones shown here.
I also decided to go for brownie mix instead of doing it on my own. Too much work to add on top of what I was already doing, but I have to admit it sounded fun. So I basically made the brownie mix and poured them in the individual cups. I baked at 350 for about 30 minutes or so. This is how they came out..

After they were done cooling, I added the marshmallows and put them under the broiler for about 1 minute or 2. just until "roasted"
It was a little hard to get the marshmallows on the tops of these so my first two looked like this. I liked that I could keep practicing with the more I do! Baking is fun! Next projects: Carmel Apple Pie, and Creme Brule!

Carmel Apples

Hello Everyone!

While on a quick trip to the market, Stevie noticed a "carmel apple kit" It looked really easy and was a welcome change of events for the evening. We were all looking forward to the apples, but I have to admit I expected a crazy mess. After refrigerating the apples and dipping them, they came out great! I decided next time I will decorate them will all kinds of fun stuf!

Just some thoughts..

Hello Again everyone, thanks for tuning in to my blog! So I haven't posted anything in a couple of days..sorry :( I wanted to share some pictures of the wedding..But first, I wanted to say that this was one of the most blessed times of my life. In the days after, I reflected on the phrase"married life". I was asked a ton of times how "married life" was..which is funny to me in 2 ways:

1. I have only been married for a week, so I'm no marriage instructor yet

2. My husband had to go back out of town to work after our wedding weekend, so I haven't had much married life AT ALL yet.

(btw, I did take a like-ing to calling Stevie my husband. I think this is mostly because it's so new-check with me in a few months, and I probably won't care.)

Anyway, I thought about what it means to be married, and how scared I was to "grow up". I began to realize that being married to my best friend, and someone I can continue to count on was a wonderful, wonderful thing. The whole thing happened so fast, and I was surrounded by so many people I love, that I forgot all about growing up, and the fears I had faced prior to the life journey ahead of me.

I asked this question in my last blog, and I keep asking God it today "Why me Lord? What do you want with me? I don't deserve the love you gave me, and I don't deserve all that you have given me to date. Today, tomorrow, what could you possibly want with ME?" and the Lord said to me- "why not you? I can make something from nothing, and when you love Me, I will love you."

Wow. Its true, but I was still unable to fathom why God would want to do anything for an unperfect human like me. Listen, you have to understand that I had given up on love. I had nothing BUT hard relationships that I thought were pretty difficult, and undesirable. I came to the realization that I would be in a relationship that would require A LOT of work.. But God gave me a new relationship. When I fell in love with His son, and devoted my life to loving Him, I was blessed. Nothing else mattered-still doesn't. He gave me a husband, He gave me my life, He gave me the relationship I have with my children- He gave me my children! As long as I can take breath, I will be in love with our Lord. Forever. Jesus said in John 14:6-"I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."-and thats why I love Him. Though I am a sinner and not worthy of His grace, He brought me to the table. Set me apart for His service., and loved me as His own. That's what He wants from me. Love. To Himself, and to His children. God is good-Thank Him in all you do!

I'm Back!

Hello Everyone! It has been a blessed week indeed..I'm not really sure where to start. I guess we can start with the wedding. I will post some pictures, so stay tuned.Let's start shall we?
I have to say the wedding far exceeded my expectations! Everything came out perfectly, so I knew that God was smiling on us! My (then) fiance came out on weds. which was cutting it close, but I was so excited to see him! He lights up my life, and there is a certain calmness he brings when he is around. I love that about him, and when I saw him, I knew i was making the right choice. We really do balance each other out- I tend to be a little silly and over the top, and he is calm and has a quiet, yet VERY effective sense of humor..it's great! So... Tiana went with me to the airport, quite anxious to see her dad- so much so, that she waited OUTSIDE the car until he came walking out. She was super excited..(I tell you, a child wears "happy" so well on their little faces, its hard not to smile.)

Rehersal was on thursday night, and the pastor, who also is a dear friend of mine was late. and when I mean late, I mean LATE! Turns out he had gotten into a car accident. I felt awful, but was glad that he was well enough to come out.

Rehearsal went well, and my cousin flew in from California that night! I was so happy to see her since it had been a long time, and she is one of the most cherished people in my life. I knew everything was going to be great- I was surrounded by so much love and joy, I felt comforted knowing that everything was truly going to be OK.

I have to let you know that this decision was the easiest one I ever had to make. I have so much trust and faith in God, that I wasn't afraid to marry Stevie. It's just the growing up part I fear most. wondering what God has in store for me inside my family..its scary. Scripture tells us" for whom ever much is given, much is required." This is a heavy statement. God indeed had blessed me, and I couldn't begin to repay Him. what would He require of me?

Anyway, after a long day, and a very long wait, it was time for me to start. I noticed the stars in the sky were amazing that night, and I could tell you that the magic in the air was so thick you could cut it with a knife. There was a peace I have never known before, a beauty that surpasses all feelings I have known, and a love that poured from my heart like an unassuming well.
I heard things, and people talking, but all I could see was my husband. the fear I had before subsided and I soon began to realize that my life would consist of he,I, Christ, and our beautiful children. Life would be alright after all!

Long story short (well kind of) we had an amazing time. We stayed at a resort here in phoenix and "lived it up" for a couple days...back to reality now.

such a shame..maybe this is what Cinderella felt like...just.after.midnight.

Wedding prep..

I don't even know what to write here! I got a lot of stuff done, and am just kinda waiting for the big day! Stevie is coming in tomorrow, so I am looking forward to the help.. We still have to move furniture, clean some more, and get things prepped. "Rehersal" is thursday night- the whole event is going to be a blessing, I just know it! wish me luck!

Tuesday birthday, Thursday log : )

So my birthday was on Tuesday and I feel bad that I didn't post anything that day. But in the way of time, it seems as though I am running extremely thin..beware, this one will be long..
Anyway, as far as birthdays go, I rather enjoyed this one. I let the Lord just take over my day, and let Him dictate the events of the day as well.I was extremely at peace at didn't seek to get any one's attention on my big day. This is odd for me, because I always looked forward to my birthday because it was MY day.. The day was all about me, and I thought that it was well deserved.
Well, This year was different..soooo different. I was simply grateful for the people that picked up the phone to wish me a happy birthday! It was such a relief not getting disappointed when nobody called, or didn't say anything, or forgot completely. This day God gave me a pretty special gift I think. He opened my eyes to the things that are usually unseen. The acts of kindness and gifts of Love that come from people that truly care about you. Here's what I mean:
My day started at about 5:45am. I got a phone call from one of my very favorite people- My sister! She had to be the first one to wish me a happy birthday, and I was so glad that she took the time to call me asap in the morning. I just love her.
Then, My mom came in my room as she had every year as far back as I can remember. As you can tell, my family makes a big deal of birthdays, and we have adopted a tradition of being the first of the first to wish each other a very special day. This tradition was institutionalized by my mother, so it always brings a certain aspect of comfort for me on that day. Anyway, this year was no different. She came into my room with a bubbly (and all so intrusive when you are half asleep) "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" Followed by a climb into bed with me, and a warm hug. I should point out that my mom is not always overly affectionate, as she likes to give us our space, so this is also an expected and welcome treat. Mom affectionately tells me happy birthday again, smiles, and then quietly asks "where did my baby go?" I smiled back and said.."I don't know mom." and we laugh.
Mom exits the room, and a few minutes later my daughter comes in..."happy birthday mom" she says in a slight whisper..the sound echoes through my ear and i am overcome with happiness. She climbs into bed with me, and we sit there cuddling for a few moments. Time to get up! I said, and we went on with are usually morning routine..
There were some phone calls from good friends, and i was relieved to know they hadn't forgotten about me. it is sooo sweet to know you are loved. Here's where it gets even better:
Around 11am i get a phone call from the flower guy. "Flowers?" I said. He followed with a "Tawn Williams right?" YES! I knew who sent them to me..My wonderful Fiance! I should take a side note here and tell you that no boyfriend I have ever had has gotten my flowers, so this was really special to me.
Well, not only does he know me, but he KNOWS me! I am not especially girlie, so just because our relationship is really very awesome, he sent me the girliest flowers in the world. Attached with a balloon and a teddy bear! I wanted to melt when I saw them because I know that he picked them just for me. It's amazing what God can do when you let him.. Stevie has been such a blessing to me, and really showed me what loving someone is about. it's not about the things you give, but about the love in your heart when you give them- he really is the best!
I was on cloud 9 when my friend from high school called me and asked me what I was going to do for dinner. I replied, with a enthusiastic "nothing" "I want to take you out!" she says, and we set a time. I really love this friend because we have been through some tough times, and she really knows me for who I am. I can't even begin to tell you what a blessing that dinner was, and she got me an amazing gift!
I just couldn't stop praising God after that day..it was the best thing He could have done for me. I appreciate so much when God lets me see the beautiful things that surround me. I may not have gotten a big hurrah, or lots of gifts, or a special something with a ton of people..I got something better. The realization that people really do care about be, and the love i felt on my birthday has been a blessing that God gave me each and everyday. It was not that different than any other day, and I think that is the greatest gift of all!

We're Back!

Yup, My friend and I...we're back!You would have to know the whole back story, but we hit a rough spot in our friendship, and I think we are well on our way to recovery! I thought about this today after talking to her. She knows who she is, and I am so thankful for her this day! I often have a hard time telling people how I feel about them, as I have come face to face with this in planning for the wedding. I'm just hard-wired that way. I'm uncomfortable putting myself out there, in fear of sounding stupid, or just not getting the feelings reciprocated. But who cares, I am dealing with a lot so i may as well let this one go too right? Continuing, said friend and I had a misunderstanding, and I feared that our friendship would never be the same. How I longed for us just to go back to the way things were...she is a new friend, so I don't know her as well I i wish to, and I feared that our dear friendship may have been seriously damaged. This saddened me, as I have had 2 really great friends that I lost touch with for wayyy to long. They, coincidentally are wonderful friends of friends of mine to this day. Makes this seem even more ridiculous doesn't it? Yeah I know. I talked to her today, and we are on our way back to being great friends! She is helping me with some wonderful goodies for my wedding and I am so thankful for her. Here's to a life long friendship!

Blessed..

This morning when I was putting on my makeup, the word "blessed" came to mind. I thought to myself- What does it mean to be blessed? You can start at the most obvious things like financial security, family, friends. But what does it mean to truly be blessed? I know I will have a hard time explaining this one, so bear with me....
I got to thinking how scripture teaches us that God will Bless whom He will bless, all according to His purpose.Last week, God revealed to me that I have a jealous and sometimes envious heart-I want the best for everyone, but I find myself thinking- what about me? Why can't I be this way, or that way- just like so and so? I guard what I have so preciously, and I searched to find out how I became that way. My thoughts wandered back to my childhood- I remembered that growing up, I felt like I was always in my sisters shadow. I always wanted what she had, to do what she does, because lets call it like it is- I thought what she had was better. The plain truth is that my sister is amazing at just about everything, and I saw how much my parents were proud of her. She did better in school, was really good at horse back riding, and even had a prettier name- all according to me. And here we go- The "what about me" attitude was born. Yes, my dad wanted the best for me, but it often turned into a "you could do better" talk instead of an encouraging one. I set out in life early to be the best at everything I could, but I never could reach the standards I set for myself. I was constantly seeking the much needed approval from my parents, and even my wonderful sister. You would have to understand that I always compared myself to others so easily, and my sister was an easy target because I loved her so wonderfully. well here is the harshness in all this- this is LIFE we are talking about Tawn! I soon began to see that everyone I met surpassed me effortlessly. It was so frustrating and so often disheartening, that many times I thought who cares anyway? I don't have much to give anyone, and the goals I set for myself were so unreachable! Soon I started to believe that I would never be anything great, which is exactly where my adversary would like to keep me. Good thing there is no force greater than God, and He had to face me with a tough one last week. We hate to see the dirt that lay within us, but it caused me to break down and give this to Him..it was the only way. I was tired of trying to be someone else, tired of trying to live up to the expectations I set for myself. I mean God made me and last time I checked, He didn't make mistakes.. so I finally said "ok Lord, take me-do what you must..I can't do it any more"and I was Blessed. He said to me "Get up child. I will help you through this. you are mine, and I will make you who I need you to be. Why can't you see, you have already been blessed.Trust Me, and I will carry you through." The words changed me. I instantly felt better, and the Lord helped me see: I am getting married to a wonderful man, I have a beautiful daughter that is wonderful- another beautiful daughter that is full of love and joy, a mother who still wishes to give me all that she has, and a family that is healthy and living this day. I am blessed. I have so much more than I deserve, and if anything-at the very bare minimum, I have God. Jesus my Lord and Savior, and no one can snatch me from the palm of His hands. Me!? Now that is a blessing. He has set me apart, and if that doesn't make me feel important, I don't know what would.The God of all creation- of Heaven and Earth, called me to be His child! I just can't believe it- Everyday I am blessed just being able to call God my friend, to talk to Him when I am weary, and to thank him when He lifts me up. Just knowing that He is there for me- THAT is what being blessed is all about. Yes, He will bless whom He will bless, and my blessings may look different that my brothers or sisters, but I find comfort in simply knowing that He loves me. that feeling can never be replaced. So listen, I encourage you all to talk to God about the blessings in your life- Even if you aren't an avid church go-er, talk to God, and He will recount your blessings to you-thank Him for all He has done, praise Him for blessing you when you never deserved to be blessed in the first place. God is good!

It's been a rough night....

Well last night was one of the hardest nights I've had in a really long time..I was so emotionally struck down that I think I cried harder than I have in a long, long, time. The hurtin' for this one comes two fold- not only do I totally HATE crying, it makes matters worse when I wake up the next morning with seriously swollen eyes. ugh. I was going to post of picture of it, but decided it was too horrible to expose you to. Just to give you a glimpse- It looks like I either ate something that I was allergic to, or i just got punched square in the eye..but without the blackness. I was mortified! Also, I woke up to an unbelievably searing headache- (again, probably a common side effect of not crying like that in years, and bawling until my face was so soaked I actually had to grab a towel).Embarrassing. Now this may not sound funny to you, but this story has a definite UP. Here is comes..crying made me calm myself into a place where i could just talk to God and ask Him to take over everything that was bothering me. The sadness, the pain, the anger- and just grant me peace. And you know what? He did. Just like that! His Holy Spirit encompassed me and i felt at peace right away. I wasn't sad, and I was able to see the situation for what it was. I'm always wondering if something could happen that fast..Not that I think God couldn't do it, but I sometimes wondered if He heard me. God is so amazing, He knows what I need and when I sincerely asks, He gives it to me. This reminded of one of my favorite passages:
Matthew 7:7-8 (New King James Version)
7 “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.

I've always loved this passage because it gives me hope. When we truly seek, we find. When we sincerely ask, He will give it to you. God wants us to grow. Sometimes it hurts like a morning migraine and eyes that hurt to blink out of, but most importantly the pruning process is a painful one. The great thing is God holds you when your weak, and when you think you are at your most dire, He steps in. "Welcome Home" I say- Please- come and make your home with me. : )

It's been a while..

I haven't posted in a week..so sue me. I have been crazy busy with what people call one of the most impotant days of your life- my wedding. Don't get me wrong, I'm super excited, I just feel like I have a lot of details to uncover and plan out in a very short space of time.
"Everything is supposed to be low key honey,
don't worry about it honey,
it will all work out honey"..
OH YEAH? how does this stuff magically get done without anyone actually doing it? Is there a tiny wedding fairy that waves her magic wand, and poofs up the perfect amount of food, tables, chairs and accessories? because if there is, she flew RIGHT past my house, and I need to contact her asap! I din't think so..So since there is no wedding fairy,I will hash it all out myself. Let's see: I started my weekend with a well equipped list of things i wanted to accomplish before my workweek started. I had to:

1. Get jewlery for my wedding outfit-didnt happen. NOBODY had anything with color in it..or anything remotely like what i wanted

2. I had to get something for my dear friend Rebecca. I did that! I was so happy I found what I was looking for, and I think she really enjoyed it. It was nice to take the time to really think about the person you are shopping for, so I had to seperate my mindset to find something perfect- anyway i walked away with something very lovely.

3. I had to get a hairpiece for my updo- long story short- done.

4. I wanted to look at alternative shoes- didn't find any. Once again, nobody likes color this time of year.

and the list goes on. Well, I wrapped up my saturday with pretty much everything on my list complete, so my sunday was available and free to focus on God- Church was amazing as usual, and after that i went to the christian store to pick up something for my fiance. I was so proud that I had everything done, and I was sharing with him the accounts of the day before. Here's where the store takes a turn..I'm on the phone with Mr. Right when he mentions that we should probably send out invitations! Did I mention my wedding is in 3 weeks? This is like throwing a nuclear bomb on my well-organized,happy little sunday! I took a deep breath and kindly said ok, and then proceeded to have silent PANIC attack right there in the middle of the store! I rushed out of there, called my friend becky and told her that I was in desperate need of a printer, and creative help. She was on it, and I was on my way. After stopping at a much needed starbucks, I ran into her house and got to work. We had some trouble with the wording and font, but it ended up wonderful. She made a comment about how unstoppable we are and then followed it with an interesting "it's like we feed each other greatness". I laughed and then realized that I didn't have a nice pen or a gluegun(which was needed for the ridiculous wax seals that i bought)so..Becky and I made a stint to target-us, and all our greatness too. Then, BACK to her house to apply wax seals, address envelopes, and figure out the mess that is wedding invitaion "who gets what". Oh well, they are all done now, and I sent some off this morning as scheduled! I am more than happy with the results, and I walked away with a brand new appreciation for the term "best friend"..Thanks Becky and Wish me luck!

Well, I'm in love...again.

No offense to my soon to be husband, but I am totally in love with this bike! My sister bought this awesome piece for me for my upcoming birthday.I'm so excited because I haven't had a bike since I was probably 12, so this is major. I have been scoping out bike bells and baskets, to juiceup this pretty little thing. I have also decided to name her "Mona". On the inside middle of on the inside middle bar it says: "Art in Motion" so I thought Mona, as in Mona Lisa was fitting . She is soo adorable, and I can't wait to start my many new adventures with her!

Pictures, Pictures

So, I love Pictures, and my sister loves taking pictures. I just enjoy looking at them. Its art- you can capture so many things with one click, and my sister has a really good eye for it. Well, I have an abundace of pictures on my computer and sometimes I can't help but to enjoy looking at them over and over... I love to play with these pictures and edit them, so I thought i would share- Here are some of my very favorites!

There are so many more, but I love pictures of my family. There is such beauty inside each and every one of them, and i just love to stop and admire them for who they are : )

Life Lessons from Dinner

After a crazy busy day, I got home to get ready for my night...the routine was pretty normal. Fix or grab dinner, do homework, and think about what time the events of the evening will take place.
Well, I made some left over pasta that was in the fridge, cut up a peach, and pulled some baby carrots from the fridge. After I ate my yummy pasta, and savored my juicy peach, I started in on my carrots. (Let me just cut off here and say I love baby carrots! They are so crunchy and delicious, and I think I fell in love with their cute little shape ages ago). So anyway, I start in on my yummy treat, and I toss a couple of carrots to the side for not tasting as yummy as I expected them to be-and then suddenly, I felt a metaphor coming on..
I thought about how people are very much like these carrots. They look wonderful on the outside, but when you get to the inside, they sometimes are just plain yucky..they either end up tasting like nothing at all, or like the dirt that they were grown in. They are mostly all good, but everyonce in a while you get that especially sweet one, the one that is so good, you wish all of them would be that way, and then you stop to savor it for as long as you can.
Bear with me here while I explain: see, People often make themselves out to be something beautiful on the outside, often hoping to attract attention. They think that if they look apealing, seem appealing, and blend in with everyone else, maybe you won't notice how yucky they really are on the inside. Wishing that you when you get to the very substantace of who they are, you won't realize that they've got no substance at all, and maybe just a product of what they were raised in.
Then I began to elevate this thought- what if God were like us? I was so quick to toss those carrots aside because they weren't what I expected, and frankly I couldn't bear to even suffer through their awful and lack luster taste. What if He just tossed us aside beacause of what we were on the inside..I mean, would any of us survive?
Really, here is the great thing about God...no matter how many sinful people there are, He doesn't toss them. He washes them, He waits on them, and He Loves them until they become the very sweetest one in the batch. And then, I think.. He smiles.

Well, Its Sunday!

And I love Sunday! Every Sunday I gather with my brothers and sisters in Christ, and I can't wait to see each and every one of them!The experience to me is so sweet because we all gather there for the same wonderful reason- to learn, to grow, and to Praise God! Life can get in the way sometimes, and having that time on sunday often reminds me to slow down, glance around the room, and take in the Grace and Love that is Jesus Christ. I can see it on the peoples faces, also including mine, as there is such an inner peace that can be shared in an enviroment like that. I love these people, I mean I really do. However, I think this Sunday was slightly different. Sweeter than a lot of sundays before, and I will tell you why. Friday, as you all know, I hung out with my friends from church. (They are SOO much more than that but I think that best sums it up for here). It was our first time hanging out with one couple, and a long time coming with the other couple. In any case, I have always been the type to wonder how things will "pan out" for all parties involved;usually concerned with everyone being happy, and feely comfy, and as a result, I tend to be observant to everything that goes on around me. This time it was different. I found that things just worked themselves out, and when just sitting back and relaxing, i enjoyed the experience 10 times more than I usually would. I walked away with such a love for these people, that it was like I had been visiting with my favorite cousins, etc in the family. I found that Love really does know no bounds, and that it's easy to care for people intensly when you let God guide you...In short the friday nite hangout was amazing. But ok umm back to Sunday- we had a brother that desperatly needed our prayers when he was facing a life or death illness. Through Prayer, fasting, and faith, he was returned back to us today. It is an amazing feeling to see God working, and I was so happy that everytime I thought of it, I found myself holding back tears of happiness. The Truth is, We aren't worthy of such saving, but as brothers and sisters we weren't ready to give up our brother without a fight, and as a result, there he stood! God really really is good!Then, last but not least-my boyfriend was home, as he made the long drive back this weekend. It seems like I smile "two fold" when he is here, and I savor the moments we share together. The days go by so quickly when he is here and it seems that as soon as I see him, its time for him to go. Nevertheless, I cherish the time spent and it keeps me anxiously waiting for the day when he will be home without having to travel. In any case, life is so precious, and its weekends like these that make our mulititude of problems seem to simply disappear....all we have to do is find happiness in the small things, and this weekend-I did. Amen :)

It's Going to Be a Great Weekend~

Well, the weekend is here...
I am at work, but can't help focusing on my after work duties. My boyfriend has been out of town for the past 8 weeks coming in on average about every other weekend. This sounds great except for the small detail that when he does come into town, we CRAM a bunch of stuff into a very short and quick-moving weekend. It makes for a very interesting weekend, and I kind get a kick out of how everyone seems to be in a whirlwind but me. I have everything planned out to a "T" , but somehow it gets VERY lost in translation...I always confused other parties involved, so I think for this weekend, just to be especially sweet, I will spare my boyfriend the typical last minute conversations- This is usually how it pans out..


Tawn:"hey -we have to be at such-in-such place in like an hour- are you ready?"

Stevie:"WHAT?" (in a most groggy state..)

Tawn: Yah, remeber how i told you about that? we have to leave soon though...gotta be THERE
in an hour, and i don't want to be late, because after that we have to go (fill in blank) "

Stevie: "Babe, I just got up..what time is it"

Tawn: "well, lets see...yup- it's time to get up!"

And so on, until He just gets up, or I have to come in again. But this weekend, yup- Its going to be different. He is fully aware of the plan, and we are going to have a great time! Tonight we are meeting with some friends, and I am just too excited. Not about the event itself, but just about the time spent with some great friends. Great people, great conversation, laughter, and some embrassing moments- it doesnt get any better than that! I'm one of those people that gets jazzed at the very thought of building new memories. When I sit across from that person years from now, I enjoy the thoought of reflecting on how great times were/are. This should be one of the highlights of my weekend- I will let you know how it goes...but..It will probably be great! stay tuned :)

New, I mean Brand New!!

Hello Everyone,
WOW! So My friend Rebecca has inspired me to totally get out here and Blog. I thought it would be fun since my random thoughts often to go to waste with no audience to share them with. Wish me luck- I observe a lot of things during my day, so things may get a little weird around here. I will post a new blog soon. Today in itself has been a pretty crazy day. I have a great and hugely busy weekend ahead of me. Filled with losts of "How am I supposed to be in two places at the exact same time" moments. You know its pretty bad when your loved one says that we may or mat not stop at a small store because "we may not have enough time" followed with "what exactly do we have planned this weekend?" I soon realized that I tend to JAM pack my time, often bringing loved ones down with me. Yes, I enjoy being busy- as a matter of fact, I wouldn't have it any other way. Life if full of great little moments, and I intend not to miss a speck of it! Here we go....